Sunday, February 3, 2008

A New Resolution

So I've finally decided its time to move out. Hold on , Let me explain. I just came back to Lebanon some 6 months ago(feels like 6 years), and I was pretty hesitant at the beginning to just come back home and say "hey folks, I am here, I am getting my own place". I hesitated simply because I haven't seen my family for 5 years, and I didn't want to be seen as an insensitive bastard(which I usually am). So I stayed around, but I feel that I've been paying the price for that decision lately. 10 years of Living alone, becoming totally an independent person makes it pretty hard to get used to the fact that a lot of parents never get that your children are not kids anymore. So this lack of privacy and personal space started chocking me. I became moody, depressed. Then after a pretty aggressive argument I've had with a parent lately, I've decided I've had enough. See the problem isn't really just about "personal space", but also a lot of core issues, character, culture, beliefs. And I realised, my parents are not the best "flatmates" for me to be around. So even though it took that much for me to get convinced, I think Its time for me to move out(again) on my own. I'd like somewhere vibrant, dynamic, where I can get stuck in traffic jams easily, but also walk down and get a coffee cup(black coffee Please ;)) in the morning, and somewhere close to my work place. So I started looking around today for appartments around Achrafieh: its the only place I know how to drive to and from to my work place in Downtown.(silly me). I miss ma "living alone" life. Do what I want, when I want, the way I like. invite friends over, cook for them, have a drink or too and then go out. Jam with a couple of buddies or simply watch a game. To simply be in control of my own environment. and hopefully soon, it will.

4 comments:

poshlemon said...

I completely know the feeling and I completely encourage you with your decision. Thumbs up. No really. I have been living abroad for 3 years now and everytime I go back home, I feel it's not the same. Now, because I visit home for very short periods, I just let it go. But, when I move back to Lebanon (not before the next 3 or 4 years), I will need to live on my own. That way I would enjoy my privacy and independence and at the same time enjoy a much healthier and loving relationship with my parents and family. Goodluck :)

_z. said...

I read your post a couple of days ago, but didn't get the chance to write you a comment. I came in, and there was smarty posh with her comment...
I was going to write the exact same thing... in different wording of course... therefore I echo posh's comment zerolando... good luck.

sweetscentofbeirut said...

We often try so hard to please others that we forget about ourselves and our own personal needs.But when we start to think of our selves we are considered selfish.

Balancing may be an option but some might fall.

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