Sunday, February 3, 2008
A New Resolution
So I've finally decided its time to move out. Hold on , Let me explain. I just came back to Lebanon some 6 months ago(feels like 6 years), and I was pretty hesitant at the beginning to just come back home and say "hey folks, I am here, I am getting my own place". I hesitated simply because I haven't seen my family for 5 years, and I didn't want to be seen as an insensitive bastard(which I usually am). So I stayed around, but I feel that I've been paying the price for that decision lately. 10 years of Living alone, becoming totally an independent person makes it pretty hard to get used to the fact that a lot of parents never get that your children are not kids anymore. So this lack of privacy and personal space started chocking me. I became moody, depressed. Then after a pretty aggressive argument I've had with a parent lately, I've decided I've had enough. See the problem isn't really just about "personal space", but also a lot of core issues, character, culture, beliefs. And I realised, my parents are not the best "flatmates" for me to be around. So even though it took that much for me to get convinced, I think Its time for me to move out(again) on my own. I'd like somewhere vibrant, dynamic, where I can get stuck in traffic jams easily, but also walk down and get a coffee cup(black coffee Please ;)) in the morning, and somewhere close to my work place. So I started looking around today for appartments around Achrafieh: its the only place I know how to drive to and from to my work place in Downtown.(silly me). I miss ma "living alone" life. Do what I want, when I want, the way I like. invite friends over, cook for them, have a drink or too and then go out. Jam with a couple of buddies or simply watch a game. To simply be in control of my own environment. and hopefully soon, it will.